it doesn’t matter how close we get physically. I don’t care about the intimacy, the pushing into each others mouths, the grasping hands, the sharp breathes. All I want is to hold you. To see what it would be like to hold your hand. I want you to want me too, in every way possible. I want to be the reason you smile. For you to want to spend your moments with me when you could be doing anything you wanted. I don’t care about sex, I just want your mouth on mine for a goodnight kiss. I want you, in the most innocent, purest way possible.

4am

In my head you are here, you are always smiling, the sun always shines and we are happy. Together.

i’ve had the shitiest day ever. my fucking heart hurts and i wanna curl up into a ball forever.

so i just realized that i miss you and that i’ve been missing you this whole fucking time. i try so hard not to think of you and most of the time i’m successful, your name won’t pass through my head for days. but then we’ll talk and it’s like nothings changed and all my progress goes down the drain. i never want to think of you with another person. in my head you will always be mine.

4am